This past weekend I traveled to Atlanta for the holiday weekend. I spent time with friends, had my spirit renewed through a challenging message at the church I visited as well as through a concert that evening (more on that in another post) and left wondering, what is my dream? What is God calling me to do? You see, every time I leave the Atlanta area I leave with the desire to move there- but is that me or is that God? I question because I also desire to move closer to my family and Atlanta is the opposite way from them. Instead of moving closer to them I would be moving further. I have friends down there who have become like family and they encourage me (at least once or twice a month) to move down there but I honestly don't know what I would do- teach? possibly but I don't have my master's so not sure how that would work. Health coach? Possibly but I have a few things I need to get figured out personally before I can guide anyone down that trail. So??? Instead of answers I have lots of questions- but the questions are the same no matter where I consider a change.
One of the many things I do on trips is listen to music and this song came on a couple of times and the lyrics struck me- do I really believe and live them out or am I just paying lip service?
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Don't know where to begin
It's like my worlds caving inAnd I try but I can't control my fearWhere do I go from hereSometimes it's so hard to prayWhen You feel so far awaybut I am willing to go where You want me to God I Trust YouThere's a raging seaRight in front of meWants to pull me inBring me to my kneesSo let the waters riseIf You want them toI will follow YouI will follow You"
Things I am pondering right now… am I TRULY willing to go where HE wants me to and when?
2 comments:
So glad you didn't mention you went to see that renegade team. So so ashamed I did such a terrible job raising my oldest daughter that she would betray me. I'm cut to the core. However, here is my take. You should not make the decision based on being closer to us. You NEED, not MUST, make the decision based on what God wants. There is only joy in that, not in what you or your parents want. If it mattered you would be a Pirates fan. But I still love you.
so hard to know when i am following God's will or my own. prayers that He would give you wisdom in that regard!
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