Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Sunday Inspiration… on a Tuesday

This past weekend I traveled to Atlanta for the holiday weekend.  I spent time with friends, had my spirit renewed through a challenging message at the church I visited as well as through a concert that evening (more on that in another post) and left wondering, what is my dream?  What is God calling me to do?  You see, every time I leave the Atlanta area I leave with the desire to move there- but is that me or is that God?  I question because I also desire to move closer to my family and Atlanta is the opposite way from them.  Instead of moving closer to them I would be moving further.  I have friends down there who have become like family and they encourage me (at least once or twice a month) to move down there but I honestly don't know what I would do- teach?  possibly but I don't have my master's so not sure how that would work.  Health coach?  Possibly but I have a few things I need to get figured out personally before I can guide anyone down that trail.  So???  Instead of answers I have lots of questions- but the questions are the same no matter where I consider a change.

One of the many things I do on trips is listen to music and this song came on a couple of times and the lyrics struck me- do I really believe and live them out or am I just paying lip service?

"Don't know where to begin
It's like my worlds caving in
And I try but I can't control my fear
Where do I go from here

Sometimes it's so hard to pray
When You feel so far away
but I am willing to go where You want me to 
God I Trust You

There's a raging sea
Right in front of me
Wants to pull me in
Bring me to my knees

So let the waters rise
If You want them to
I will follow You
I will follow You"

Things I am pondering right now… am I TRULY willing to go where HE wants me to and when?


Bill (cycleguy) said...

So glad you didn't mention you went to see that renegade team. So so ashamed I did such a terrible job raising my oldest daughter that she would betray me. I'm cut to the core. However, here is my take. You should not make the decision based on being closer to us. You NEED, not MUST, make the decision based on what God wants. There is only joy in that, not in what you or your parents want. If it mattered you would be a Pirates fan. But I still love you.

Brooke said...

so hard to know when i am following God's will or my own. prayers that He would give you wisdom in that regard!