Tuesday, March 31, 2015

What Keeps You Up at Night?

*disclosure- I received an advance digital copy of the book and will receive a signed hard copy upon release as part of this launch party group.

Last week I got some great news (which was good because I had a rough week).  I had been chosen for the launch team of Pete Wilson's new book.  A few years ago I read Plan B by Pete and it was quite timely for the stage of life I was in (actually I have it sitting out to reread if I ever find any free time).  I also have Empty Promises and would like to read Let Hope In.

So- let's back up- how did this come about.  I was reading through FB one day (see FB can be good) and saw a post on Pete Wilson's wall about his new book and the launch.  

(see that tag line- that is what led me to follow through)

I read these words: "I wrote this book for me and so many others that at times feel paralyzed by uncertainty. You know as well as I do that life doesn’t come with an instruction manual and rarely does it follow a straight path, yet so often we wait for clarity before moving forward on our dreams. My dream is to help you move forward with your dreams even when you are scared to death. I truly believe that if you want to experience a breakthrough in your life, you must find a new cadence that will provide the strength you need to move forward in spite of your doubts, questions, and fears. The rhythm of faith is not hinged upon our circumstances but our willingness to surrender." 

I read them and cried- I felt like he was speaking into my heart- that post announced the launch team, I applied and was chosen.  I have received an advance ebook copy that I hope to share lots of thoughts from- here, on twitter, and on FB.  I am so excited about this and feel like it's another step into the journey I am embarking on.  

So- why am I sharing today?  Well, glad you asked!  You can go HERE to place a pre-order.  BUT, it doesn't stop there!  If you place a pre-order because of my post/suggestion of book/etc- for the next 48 hours (or 48 hours from when his post goes live): they are going to be doing a cool giveaway this week called 'Dinner with Pete'. Whoever pre-orders the book in the next 48 hours can submit their receipt for a chance to win 1 of 25 spots to this dinner.

And, in full disclosure- if I have the most pre-orders (so if you order as a result of anything I have said PLEASE send me an email or post in the comments/screenshot the receipt whatever!) I have the opportunity to be part of that "Dinner with Pete" as well!  

The book itself is due to be released on May 5- so get that pre-order in today!  

Sunday, March 22, 2015

Sunday Inspiration- Not Alone

As I have mentioned a few times I am getting ready to make a big life change- turning 40 in June, moving closer to family and contemplating a career change (for sure a job change though)- okay maybe more than one life change :)

Anyway, this song has been on repeat in my playlist and I wanted to share (this is where I wish I could sing).  The biblical truth in the words (straight from Isaiah 43) are full of promise- promises that, in this time where fear is trying to take over, I am NEVER alone- He goes before me- I truly can rest in that!

I love this part of the song: 
In the midst of deep sorrow
I see Your light is breaking through 
The dark of night will not overtake me
I am pressing into You
Lord, You fight my every battle
And I will not fear

Friday, March 20, 2015

Gone and Done It...

What popped into your mind?  For me it was the Shania Twain song BUT nope- that actually has NOTHING to do with this post!  LOL :)

(image found here)

So, what did I do?  Well, two years ago I was training for my first half and had a huge sense of accomplishment when I finished.  Last year I did my third and that was dealing with sinus/respiratory issues and the beginning of the heel issues and while I did not do as well as the previous year- I was okay with that.  In the last year- well, let's just say (and if you have been reading my blog you know this) I let life take over and run the show.  So, this year- no half BUT I did sign up for the 5K- I know that I am not going to have my best time, PR, or anything of that nature- it's what happens when you have gained weight and haven't done the training BUT I do know that I NEED this.  I waffled back and forth on whether or not to sign up for it.  My mom encouraged me to do so but then I read THIS story and it clinched the deal.  You see- if that man- can put aside his pain, his discomfort, his self-consciousness to do it well, there's no excuses.  So- I signed up for the Covenant Health 5K.  I may be walking 90% of it (shoot, I climbed 5 sets of stairs today at the dr office and felt like I was breathing hard) BUT, I will finish it, I have to start somewhere and that is the somewhere I am going to start (well, hopefully sooner with some nice weather this coming week).

(image found here)

Setbacks and obstacles are a part of life- the question becomes- how am I going to use them- or how is God going to use them to strengthen who I am?  I saw this on FB and loved it (I have no clue who the original source is)

Sunday, February 22, 2015

Deep Waters- Part 2

I wrote this blog back at the end of November and in it I talked about how I felt like I was barely treading water.  Since then a lot has happened some of which I have touched on here and some of which I have alluded to.  So- this is kind of a catch up post along with a couple of thoughts regarding those deep waters.

- I have not had hardly any heel pain whatsoever- some stiffness every once in a while but I haven't been wearing shoes much this week (more on that in a few)

- I went on a mini getaway to Gatlinburg which was to help me find time to think and pray about God's direction which led to...

-It's time to share- I have talked to the people who needed to know so I am free to do so.  Part of this journey I have been on with trusting is going to be lived out over the next several months.  I am planning on leaving the job I have had for the last 10 years, leaving the city I have lived in for 20 of the last 22 years, and at the age of 40, possibly moving back in with my parents until I find a new job or figure out where God is leading me.  I am working on my licensure for Indiana and Ohio but am not confining myself to the education world.  Quite honestly- I am tired, my body is tired, my brain is tired and I need to get my groove back- so if that means taking a step away from teaching for a while then I know that God will provide.  I will be honest- I am SCARED to death.

-We had a week of snow and ice, bookended by the flu the weekend before and a stomach bug the weekend after.  And during that week of snow and ice-3 power outages.  1 was 4 hours (before the snow and ice), one was 29 hours (during the snow and ice- it was cold) and one was 1 hour that was in the midst of the coldest night of the winter.  Of course that meant that I had a week to work on things- I should have worked on packing (didn't) but I DID work on lots of rest, reading, and when I had power- working on the licensure information that I needed.

So- back to that fear- I am doing a 40 day challenge for Lent- it's a reading challenge and it's reading through the Gospels.  My friend Angela and blogging friend Brooke are also participating so that's kind of fun and I love the accountability from their posts on FB.  Now, I will admit that I used today (Sunday) to play catch up.  And I read Matthew 8:

23 And when he got into the boat, his disciples followed him. 24 And behold, there arose a great storm on the sea, so that the boat was being swamped by the waves; but he was asleep. 25 And they went and woke him, saying, “Save us, Lord; we are perishing.” 26 And he said to them, “Why are you afraid, O you of little faith?” Then he rose and rebuked the winds and the sea, and there was a great calm. 27 And the men marveled, saying, “What sort of man is this, that even winds and sea obey him?”

And I immediately went back to my thoughts of how I felt like I was drowning and the fear that I have with all of the changes going on in my life.  Verse 26 jumped out at me and I felt like he was standing in front of me asking me that exact question.  If I say I am going to trust- then I NEED to trust- regardless of the storms going on around me and in me.  Regardless of my fear- I need to trust that the man who can tell the winds and waves to be still and they obey can tell MY winds and waves to be still and they will.

Then- I "happened" across this article and realized that God is definitely trying to get my attention and wants me to fix my eyes on Him

Sunday, February 1, 2015

Lost, a Restless Heart or ???

 (can found HERE)

I have started this post several times in the last few weeks, however, while I am continuing to walk out the journey of trusting- it's taking my heart and my soul to places I never anticipated.  Those who really know me and I mean REALLY know me- know that I have been struggling.  I have hidden it from a lot of people- put on the mask at church and said that all is "fine" because in reality- compared to the struggles and trials that others are going through my life is "fine".  Because of this lost and restless heart feeling I knew that it was time to get away- I drove to Pigeon Forge- which while not a huge trek was enough of a getaway that I didn't have the pressures and distractions of home looming over me.  I got a decent price on a hotel room for two nights and as it stands will be visiting a church in the Townsend area tomorrow morning as I make my way home.  This time away was for me to pray, seek clarity, search for peace and look for God's direction in my life.  Through this time- this blog post was "born".

I was in the middle of reading a book and for some reason I had to put it down- I pulled out my journal (with Proverbs 3:5 on it) and just started writing.  Occasionally I'll do that and not pay attention to what or how I write- just write what's on my heart.  These were my words tonight- words I didn't even really were in me:

"I feel as if I have lost me- or a part of me this year.  That all I have done- all I have known- it's gone.  My dreams are vapors- they have disappeared.  Or maybe not disappeared- maybe more like rendered themselves invisible.  They are there but are lost- can't be seen- seemingly undefined- my purpose, my passion, my vision.  I have no idea what mine is anymore and that scares me- it fills me with a fear that threatens to overtake my entire being.  What is my calling?  What is my dream?  Who am I? The questions burn within as I seek to find answers, and I have none."

There are a few things going on that have led to this restlessness- as I continue to seek and read I will continue to trust that He is going to bring me through and find complete rest in Him- He will lift me up on his shoulders.

Sunday, January 11, 2015

Sunday Inspiration- Bruised feet

This song is the reason for the reason for my word this year being trust- as I listened to this song the following line just kept playing over and over in my head and my heart.

The past couple of years have been a series of ups and downs (and if you have read my blog you know that) and my feet (as well as my heart) are bruised.  What causes bruised feet?  Overuse, stress on them, dropping things/physical trauma, internal trauma from other issues.  Trust involves in lacing up those bruised feet and following Him and knowing that He is leading me down a road that will be filled with those twists and turns and before they heal it may get worse.  It's trusting that He is with me in the pain and along this journey.  It's believing that as I take the steps of faith into what I cannot see His path is laid out before me and it's the most amazing journey I will ever take.  It's trusting that even if, at the age of 40, I end up beginning new dreams, He is going to lead those dreams if I let Him.

Friday, January 2, 2015

All Roads Lead to...

Hope and change!

In thinking of my "word" for 2015 I ended up with a phrase. 2013 saw perseverance and 2014 saw LIVE (which I am still working on) so deciding on this year's I had to take a look at what was going on in my life currently and throughout the past year. I am starting out this year with an eye on the future- an eye on "Hope and Change" (but not the kind other people say...)

Trust!  Okay- so, I had started another post with a "word" for the year and then as I was traveling back to TN from Indiana I just really started thinking, praying, and listening and I just felt like God was telling that hope and change was not ALL He was going to have for me and while that's a huge part of it- TRUST is going to be the whole picture.  

I have talked about trust in the past- it's something that has been hard for me- it's something that has led to heartbreak and turmoil yet this time, I feel like it's all about resting in Him.  When I rest in Him then I will TRUST!  And as I pondered this post throughout the week (I really wanted to have this up on the 1st but it was not ready) I read this post on the (in)courage blog and this jumped out at me: 

"It’s not about not being afraid, but about trusting in a God who is bigger and greater than even our biggest and greatest fear. "

And this one by Ann Voskamp: Falling Forward and these words enveloped my heart and said I needed to read them: "Sometimes you can hardly trust your legs, trust turning and taking the next step."

and "Failing? What feels likes losing is really gaining experience.
Falling apart? Fall forward into whatever. comes. next.
Whenever you are lost, FORWARD is always the way Home.
And in a fallen world, I fall forward into a New Year, and I fall forward into Christ’s safe arms andit is safe to trust. He is safe to trust."
So, yes, TRUST remains my word- it will be the word on which my heart stakes its claim.  It will be the word on which my anxious thoughts rest.  It will be the word that my uncertainty comes to peace. When I venture to take a step into the unknown- trust is knowing that He is holding my hand, directing my path, and stepping with me.  While my "life" verse is Zephaniah 3:17- my "year" verse is going to be Proverbs 3:5-6.
Will you step with me?  
(and I am putting this out there that my goal is to have 1 post a week talking about trust- it may be about my personal journey, a song, etc. but I know that I am being called to share this journey with others)