As I said, I have been thinking about how I feel ill-equipped. I have felt that way in the past- in my professional life (teaching) and my personal life but right now I feel even more so with this group fitness certification I am pursuing. I look at myself and I hear all of the lies- and while they may have truth in them it has become the source of the words that I have to overcome. I know that I am not what you would consider the typical fitness person. I know that I have a LONG way to go. I know that I think part of this stems from the fact that just 4 years ago this past week I ran my first half and then things started unraveling in my life. We are coming up on 3 years post sinus surgery and 2 years ago right around this time I came down with an unknown virus that knocked me out of commission for 2 1/2 weeks of school. We are also coming up on the 2 year anniversary of my move. So, in the last 4 years my life has been topsy turvy.
When I started thinking that way I realized I was not ill-equipped but instead I was working on equipping myself well with the those skills, tools, and the means to do a ministry.
As I continued to flesh out the question- What in the world am I doing? I realized my question was changing to- What in the world is God doing? As I set goals, as I prepare my heart and mind for instructor training- and as I looked at those areas I felt an unsettledness- a realization that God isn't finished- that as I walk through these next several months- I