So- here goes- my trip back in time. I have seen times of joy and heartache with my job, my personal life and my spiritual life. And guess what- to get to the mountain peak you have to start out in the valley. You have to climb those mountains and on the way you are skirting many obstacles- rocks, boulders, holes, critters. When you get to the mountain top you look out and it's beauty as far as the eye can see. I think of Gatlinburg- even in the ashes you find beauty. Even when the fire has burned a scar so deep that you think it can never be healed- you can and do find healing and beauty. But, guess what- to get to the next mountain you have to go back down into the valley and fight your way up again and the cycle continues until you reach the destination.
I have experienced loss- just like everyone- but a loss that I never knew I wanted until I didn't have it anymore. And through that loss, I found joy- a joy that I thought I already had but then realized that with the heartache and the surrender of what once was- I had an even deeper joy.
I have been sick- emotionally but even more so- physically. My body has fought on many occasions and through it I came out weaker, yet stronger. It gave me a renewed desire to bring my body back to health. It gave me insights into what others felt. It gave me a glimpse into where I was heading physically if I didn't take control- or rather give Him control- of it.
You can see I didn't have to give any specifics- because each of us walk this journey- each of us have our own path, our own trip back in time. There's a saying that says to only look back to see how far you have come. I totally agree with this- we can't live in the past, we can't have a "should have" life. It's okay to look and see what you have learned but it's not okay to park there and dwell on it- it's time to take a peek in the rearview mirror and then turn our eyes to the road in front of us because it's not where have been- it's where we are going. And that... is a subject for my next post :)