Friday, February 15, 2013

Being Still

Lately I have felt this sense of urgency that something (or some things) needs to change.  I am like a hamster circling in his wheel over and over- doing the same things, day in and day out, with no end in sight.  There's a scene in While You Were Sleeping where Lucy (Sandra Bullock) is talking to her boss and has handed him the wedding invitation.  He asks her if she was insane and her response is: "Yes, Jerry. I'm insane. I go to work and I sit in a box like a veal. I work every holiday, I go home to a cat and now a rich and handsome man has asked me to marry him and I've said yes. OK. That makes me a total raving lunatic."

Well, other then the fact that I don't have a cat and nobody has asked me to marry him- this is how I feel.   So, lately this has been my focus.
 It's why my posts have been sporadic, and maybe a little more philosophical/thought provoking than my normal fitness related/running posts.  My time seems in high demand lately (this week alone I had an 11 hour day, a 12+ hour day, and 2 10 hour days) so the downtime I have had I have been spending it focusing on where it needs to be spent- my heart.  Unfortunately, my physical side of that has slowed down (at least this week).  I have done what I could when I can- next week my time should be different and I can do more.  All I know is that I am still working to find that balance.






So, in the meantime- I will slow down, take some time outdoors, have sporadic blogging, focus on my various relationships, LIVE, and be still just to hear what is being said.  In all of that, I hope to rediscover my joy for life (I'll be honest and admit I have been struggling with that lately). 

7 comments:

Bill (cycleguy) said...

Nothing wrong with slowing down. It is necessary from time to time. we were never made to go at a breakneck pace all the time. Don't lose sight of the physical need though. Even if it is a mile or two on the mill. That is a necessary refreshment to the soul. Love you much.

Caitlin Helsel said...

I'm so sorry that things have been rough, love. I think your plan of action to step back, get outside, clear your head, and take some you time is the wisest thing to do right now. Everyone needs to do that...take a break, reset, and figure out where they're supposed to go next...nothing wrong with that at all...I hope your weekend gives you plenty of time to rest, relax, and find some peace <3

Tami said...

I know and I plan on it- tomorrow is going to be cold and yuck so will be on the treadmill Saturday for sure. Love you too.

Tami said...

Caitlin- thanks so much for your encouragement. I think if I could get some time away it would help tremendously- will have to check into doing so the next couple of weeks.

jillconyers said...

I find myself feeling like this about 2/year and I do exactly what you're doing. Slow down! I take the time to regroup, reevaluate my priorities and refocus. The down time is rejuvenating.

Tami said...

Thanks Jill- glad to know that I am not alone!

Suz and Allan said...

Those are some wonderful quotes to keep in mind. Thanks for sharing them Tami!