Friday, March 28, 2014

Letting Go of Expectations and #livelikewill

This post has been in the works for a while- but I finally have a few moments to put "pen to paper" (so to speak) and get it out there.

This Sunday that ticker to the right turns to 0 days because it's "Go Time".  This year of training has been rough (between a sprained foot, upper respiratory and sinus issues, schedule issues that just never seemed to change, and a winter that never seemed to end) and a little disappointing in that I realized that  physically I was not ready this year.  I never did a long run over 8 miles (which is usually a no-no).  When I signed up I originally had a goal of 2:30 for the half- that would give me a chance to beat my last year's run by 15 minutes.  However, after reviewing my last few months I realized that at some point I needed to do the following.

I needed to let go of my expectations- when I did that- I realized that mentally I was ready.  It doesn't matter if I end up running, walking, and crawling- the bottom line is that I WILL finish and that means I am further then I was just 2 years ago.

I need to enjoy the run.  I have a lot on my mind- with job, finances, family stuff, major decisions to be made and an upcoming sinus surgery (in two weeks- yikes) so this Sunday is all about enjoying the run- letting the road take away my worries, my stress, and my heartache.

and then finally- I need to #livelikeWill.  Will McKamey was a young man on the Navy football team.  Last Saturday he collapsed at a spring football practice and ended up having to have surgery on his brain to relieve a blood clot.  He ended up in a coma and passed away on Wednesday morning.  His mom posted this on her FB page: My dear friends and family, William Dean McKamey met his Lord and Savior this afternoon. There are no words to describe the pain our family feels right now, However we are rejoicing that Will is now on the fields of Heaven...running the football! I know that we were all praying for a miracle, and we were able to see the miracle of Will entering heaven today. My friends please focus your prayers now on Randy and I and our immediate family as we deal with the upcoming days. We love you all and we are overcome with the way you rallied behind us. Will was able to change the spirit of a community, a school and a Navy football team...without really saying a word. He led a wonderful Christian life and I'm so thankful that God chose me to be his mother for 19 years! #livelikewill

That hashtag took on a life of it's own and they are now working on setting up the Live Like Will Foundation.  From what I can gather this young man- who was only 19- loved life and lived for Christ. He was good friends with the son of a dear friend of mine and went to a local Christian school/local church.  There were numerous stories on him, the situation, and the family.  I heard that a local news station took a moment of silence in memory of him and his family.  This young man- in a short time- had a huge impact on a lot of people.  When I saw this hashtag I knew what I was going to do- I will putting the hashtag on my hand and arm on Sunday morning to remember that I have been given an amazing gift and opportunity and it's time to grab life fully and run!

So… here we go!  These next days will be crazy busy and I can't wait to share about it!


Bill (cycleguy) said...

I'm glad you have decided to do the 1/2 but to enjoy it. Will take the stress out of not being able to prepare like you wanted to. Remember also when you reach "your well" He will take you deeper. Love you much.

Niki said...

Definitely go out and enjoy the run. You may just surprise yourself. Also, I love this #livelikewill!! What a great way to carry on his legacy! Good luck tomorrow!

Brooke said...

looking forward to reading your race recap!!